Gratitude and Joy
It’s been awhile since I have written anything personal and I thought I would take this time of year as an opportunity to update everyone on what’s been going on with me. Since finishing radiation, I have been very busy working on my recipes and doing a lot of behind the scenes technical stuff with my blog. I’m sure it’s all stuff you wouldn’t find too interesting , but nevertheless things I had to learn and get done.
Also I had my first scans since April. Oh my! Scanxiety is so real and especially in my case. I had them done at MD Anderson and because of Hurricane Harvey, I ended up having to wait almost two weeks for the results because of all the chaos that the hurricane caused. It was a very stressful waiting period and two enlarged lymph nodes were found. One under my left arm and another in my abdomen. Not good news! We proceeded to have a biopsy and unfortunately, the results were malignancy. At this point, I can’t tell you how devastated I was by this horrible news. Up until then, I was feeling so good, in fact better than I have felt in years and thought I was doing all the right things to beat this disease.
Gratitude for My Life
It was at this point I realized everything I have to be thankful for. I remembered at this time last year I was still suffering from intense pain in my right breast, taking antibiotics for my “mastitis” and getting ready for my MRI, just in case it wasn’t mastitis. Well as those of you who have followed me on this journey know, It was not mastitis. It was something much worse and lethal. It was Inflammatory Breast Cancer, which is a rare and very aggressive form of breast cancer. Last December when I was finally diagnosed, I was on oxygen because my right lung had collapsed due to the cancer and my husband had to wheel me around in a wheelchair. Looking back on that time, when I did not think I would have much time left on the earth, I am completely overcome with gratitude.
- Gratitude for my faith in the Lord which has carried me through these dark times.
- Gratitude for my incredibly supportive family.
- Gratitude for my wonderful friends.
- Gratitude for all my readers who have joined me throughout my journey.
- Gratitude for every day that I wake up and see the sun.
- Gratitude for all the little things that bring a smile to my face.
- Gratitude for my new lease on life.
I know without any doubt that the Lord has plans for me. This presence of malignancy is just a small bump in my life’s road. On a more positive note, with as aggressive as my type of breast cancer is, the fact that it has not shown much progression since April is a really good thing. My last systemic treatment was at the end of March and my scans were in August. I feel that my ketogenic diet has supported my recovery and mitigated so many of the effects of chemo and radiation. Right now, my healthcare team has me on a new course of treatment. I have infusions of Kadcyla every three weeks which has not been too bad so far, and apparently I won’t lose my hair again! I am in hopes that this new systemic treatment will knock the cancer off it’s socks.
Joy in My Life
I have decided not to put any of my plans on hold so I am going full speed with completing my nutritional therapy certification and eventually going on to my oncology nutrition degree. I have also just finished my certification with the Emotion Code, which in short is a method of using kinesiology to help remove emotional baggage and blockages from your person. I feel more at peace and complete than ever before in spite of the cancer. I would also like to study yoga for individuals with mobility and strength limitations. I can’t believe I have so much energy and my only wish is that I had more time each day to accomplish and learn as much as possible. As hard as this is to believe, I am in a much better place in my life today because of all the love and joy!
It is my wish for all of you to each find your own personal joy!